Changes??

Ever since this year everything change i become very violent,hot-tempered...bla bla alot of things which just isn't me..i just think is this part of growing up??second stage of puberty?? genes just like like family blood?All hot-tempered..The genes starting to grow inside me which cause my emotion changes and i just get stress easily which i am suppose to be the happy go lucky kinda person..what is happening..at work i can get emotional just wander off into my thinkings while carry on with my work (" I did the wrong stuff at work and serve it to customers") luckily none of then knew.In simple words i just lose my focus very easily now.I can't get my thinking straight even though i tried being alone for awhile but nothing worked....THINGS JUST AREN'T SAME ANYMORE....i just feel empty..nothing but just work study rest nothing else matters...i think laying low for is the best solution for now.

dark side of me? The changes...

Today was suppose to be a nice day since i planned to go out with my cousin to catch movies.Everything was fine bla bla until..i reach the amk hub which i start to behave violently sort of hot tempered i think..cause it is like i get suddeny so frustrated at everything even someone blocking me at the mall i would give them a fierce stare(not that i am looking for trouble)just this anger inside me.I somehow have been behaving this way a few weeks ago which i dun know why,maybe cause by stress? i dun know...but just life isn't going well even though i strife hard for it.All the problems arising might just be the key to releasing the dark side of me which i definitely can't control...changes in me is too much for myself to adapt...

parkour!

today is quite a good day since i woke up at 12pm getting ready for parkour.But instead of meeting at 12,me and my crew end up meeting at 3.Everything was fine until one of my mates brought his girl along and i was like WTF we are suppose to be training.But i did not question him,the rest of the team wasn't comfortable as with a girl around we would be doing lesser things cause she would get tired of walking as we scout for good parkour spots and she gets bored easily all sorts of things.
But the worst of all leo my team mate camera man! didn't charge his camera! ended up we only did condition instead of the videos that we planned for quite a time.Still! we manage to learn our lesson no bringing of girlfriends along and camera fully charge! till next time

tiring and frustrated day

today life isn't good..lesson which was suppose to end at 6 ended at 4 plus which got my mood up a little..the thing which is frustrating most is the works at school..i dun know wat the programming lecturer is talking about,all i can see is his mouth moving about.adding to the stress the lecturer announced the test are coming which is counted in my points to poly.And today thanks to my "good" mood i start to pissed my friends and other around me and i am deeply sry about the attitude.today nothing is going well..all i can do is to strife on.

first post

My first post in this blog,i shall start with my new job at the airport.quite fun and hard? cause i am working in a cafe,mine is just a takeaway outlet which enquire speed and memory test with all the formula of the coffee.i am still a trainee but i am required to learn everything within 3 months if not hmm should i say goodbye.but overrall life there is good with the friendly staff and colleages.And my life sort of mess up with this new working life coming in,training time disrupted and alot of things just worried about my studies at ite which i am not coping very well.
hope my first post isn't that boring but life just goes on for me regardless of good and bad...till next time