bad injury...

Well today wasn't good...my darling left singapore...to genting haix..that bad enough yet this morning my teacher called...and warned me about my attendance and i got my ass on debut list..which i have to see the section head this mon to explain things if not i be kick out of exam!!
my mood got really really bad...cause it was like i got MC to cover myself...and that joker lecturer told my teacher...too much MC also cannot..who does he think he is...i am really sick...maybe due to overtraining...and the school busy schedule...haix.

I am sorry for spoiling my 2 good friends mood who was suppose to go train with me...well in the end my mood got better thaNKS to them...but worst thing of all i injured myself real bad...today in the gym...starting i was playing grabbing with WH...i got him down he got me...but during the last round he struggled so much...and somehow i sprain my jaw bone..ended up i couldn't speak and eat well...next..we played outside the ring..cause WZ doing his pad work...and i ended having my head and shoulder slam on the hard ground...strangely myhead was alright except for my bruise shoulder...haix not his fault...just over extreme...well finally...during the sparring section...i injured my dear good bro..and i really wanna apoligise for it..but he did return me the favour..and injured my leg with his heavy kick..i almost fell to the ground kneeing....and another opponent came in...samely my friend...but still ended up ounching me right in the face and i almost got TKO...after ALL THIS ENDED UP BLEEDING IN THE MOUTH FOR QUITE AWHILE...but this is wat it like learning martial art...

After so much,i finally found my true answer

We went through so much...there were up and downs...well until today then do i realise i am a jackass,i have been saying love about 2 person but yet i couldn't do it myself.My DEAR gave so much for me yet i didn't cherish her,i was really stupid...i am more than willing to take any punishment...plz forgive me...darling will u?

From this moment onwards,i will give my everything to you,and be with ya for eternity...i will keep my promise never to leave you...and be there for you whenever you need me...

Please forgive me.

so confused and troubled

Dun really have anything to say today..as i just got back from genting..there is so many things in my mind,thought a trip to genting would relieve me of my troubles..well it didn't.Later on,i have to make a decision of my life...to the person whom i adore and loves so much..but just my life makes me have to withdraw everything and get back to my personal life..my life so messy now...wat can i do?

some people say troubles and thinking are created by oneself and only himself alone can take it away..but wat about love? which concerns 2 person?...

Finally Back,confused.

hello,sry i was MIA for a few months hmm so many things happened but i try to keep it short.Ever since i lost contact with my blog(cause my personal laptop was spoiled...till now..)things was going well..though there were up and downs in my relationship with "her",but things are going fine now.Studies wise hmm,i got a GPA 3 which is all Bs in my modules,this is considered a very good GPA by my teacher...but to me i am so disappointed!!.But nvm i am going to try harder this term although this is a very hard and tiring term.

About my personal life...well recently i am hanging out with 2 good bros lols we even name ourselves (PROJECT M aka PROJECT MONSTER)all our secrets are shared within 3 of us
just happens we share the same fate but monster got better life while me and leo got our own problems...all i can say is life isn't as much as u expected..now i am in a mid of confusion with my studies and lots of other things...which all is crucial and important in my life...thanks to my 2 bros i am still hanging on..

A person can't move on with all the burdens,only puting it down then will he be moving on in life.
Can i take back a decision which i made wrongly?

back to posting

hello quite a time since a post..hmm been rather busy with school lately can't even do my training..and partly because i wanna spend time with my dearest....YUP i am finally attached to a wonderful girl...hehe hehe

i am actually quite worried about alot of things,my family..my studies??(exam is just 1 month away),training??(getting quite chubby lately)..and alot of things..and drawing time for my dear...cause it is like one live at east another at north...and she get sick kinda easily...which add on to my worries....but i was given assurance from her she would be ok..and i was ORDERED to focus on my studies and training...nothing else..not even my family(which is very serious,but i shouldn't poke my nose into it cause my generation must not be affected)..thanks to her now i got another supporting hand...

lastly i still wanna apologise to my officer,that i can't make it to his extra classes..cause of some personal reasons...hope that ya forgive me...

Never Give Up! Don't Disappoint Those Around You!

Wat really happen...

Seems things in my family got really bad....so bad till relative..even friends are involved...and me as the eldest son of my whole generation..i have to share this burden even though i am told to leave them alone...but i wanna know everything..so i can control things and stop this from happening with my generation or future generation...this affect some of my schedule..and i have apologise through here..cause i dun know how to face ya sir hoe yong...thanks for the support ya gave me..and the tuition..but i am really sry that i missed ya class last sun cause i was struck down by the matter during that day when i overheard the conversation..so i lost all my mood and stayed outside with my friend...who somehow share the same situation as me..no wonder we are real good friends or should we say buddy...this is all i can share for now...

i will persevere on for my brothers and sisters...and you..

hello back to posting one more day to school reopen haixz all those engineering maths!!...anyway today was a pretty nice day cause went out with 2 buddy and all i can say was a fun day,first we went for interview for a "sales" job and hmm...was kinda pissed at first with all the talking and time was just passing...as we were suppose to go bugis buy some clothes but the interview keeps on dragging time..but somehow the manager there manage to persuade us and he keeps on going round and round with his words....so we gave up and planned for a training course this mon for the job....the pay back for the sales was pretty attractive...so we three decided why not give it a try since it might be a turn of our life in business.

After our decision we went for "lunch" which is at about 6...definitely bad for our body...anyway back to the story,we searched for clothes at bugis street and instead of searching for clothes we ended up looking at gals...i was like haixz...but i was the one who started the glaring haha...well so we ended up with a few shops and we thought we might just buy everything in one day as i didn't bring enough cash....and there were too many choices.till next time..

this is a few pics to remember my longest hair record(pardon me just trying to remember...cause have to cut my hair for the school....hiz..) emo me?? lols

two version of me one emo (top),so call decent (below)

cya....one must try his best in life..live life to the fullest!!

2 days of different mood

Yesterday wasn't very good for me mainly because i was damn blurred the whole day..it started with the afternoon which is the time i usually woke up in..during holidays.I was feeling dizzy plus stomach problems and all this made time pass damn fast soon it was 3 and i have to rush to work but i HAD TO USE THE TOILET my stomach couldn't take it any longer so it drag on to 3.30 and is a definitle late for work timing so i called in and was planning to take mc leave but it is going to cause alot of problems in the company so i had go on with the illness and work.I as i expected i reach the airport 15 mins late.i cork up alot of things got blur with the counter,made the wrong drink and the worst of all my manager is sick too which he got real piss with me for making the customer wait...so i got hell of a scolding...and this scolding continued till the end of day which is near midnight..still i am regretful of my mistake and i have to apologise for my blurrness sry david....

Today was a nice day for me,went to celebrate a birthday party wah!! morning woke up about 10 and went out took a fabulous breakfast and rested awhile with my cousin and we rushed to the party and we had steamboat! woo!! both me and my cousin conquer the table haha...but nothing good just come without sacrific..i have to push my training further next week if not i can't catch up with my schedule...and we both ended up with bloated body lols which i am not very happy with hmm...and that all till next time cya

here one pic from golden mile steamboat

wat does the drinks look like??

perversance is what keep people going for their goals

back

Life seems normal to me now and it is holiday and improvement made to this blog was done by me bro kit thanks to him i got new things finally a music..hmm nothing much about my life recently except my birthday...last 2 days ago...one joker invited me there but ended up i waited for him to open his chalet...well it was quite fun though..met some old classmate and one thing i am really glad to hear..lols liang u slim down le now handsome haha not BHB..but words from their mouth..kk back to story..after that i drag my time slowly to met my good buddy monster..for night cycling.wah! that night was fun we speed all the way from tampines to east coast and took a 2 hours nap there,we talked about alot of things the way there and back and i can only say life is just unexpected as it is always..hmm i hope to have trips like that again and others are welcome.That all for now...

Bad day? worst year?

Yesterday wasn't a good day..cause i am working with my branch manager..which is damn strict,the joker me would just hide in my shadow and just carry on with my work..worst of all i was like malign,cause i was reported by another manager that i didn't listen to orders which i dun remember but perhaps i was joking with him and that manager took my words seriously...which i ended up with a bloody scolding,IT just spoiled everything and i knew yesterday is going to be bad....real bad...
Well....wat really hit me most is that 4 most important person in my life,3 who watch me grew up and 1 who grew up with me is having such serious problems which until today then i was told of it...i really cannot imagine all those things could happen...i only knew of my friends who experienced it before...seems i am living in LA LA LAND all these times...where the 4 person is suffering and fighting....now i feel anger inside me and i know that life isn't just as easy as it seems.

It seems survival isn't easy but i will fight hard for it with any means....

Changes??

Ever since this year everything change i become very violent,hot-tempered...bla bla alot of things which just isn't me..i just think is this part of growing up??second stage of puberty?? genes just like like family blood?All hot-tempered..The genes starting to grow inside me which cause my emotion changes and i just get stress easily which i am suppose to be the happy go lucky kinda person..what is happening..at work i can get emotional just wander off into my thinkings while carry on with my work (" I did the wrong stuff at work and serve it to customers") luckily none of then knew.In simple words i just lose my focus very easily now.I can't get my thinking straight even though i tried being alone for awhile but nothing worked....THINGS JUST AREN'T SAME ANYMORE....i just feel empty..nothing but just work study rest nothing else matters...i think laying low for is the best solution for now.

dark side of me? The changes...

Today was suppose to be a nice day since i planned to go out with my cousin to catch movies.Everything was fine bla bla until..i reach the amk hub which i start to behave violently sort of hot tempered i think..cause it is like i get suddeny so frustrated at everything even someone blocking me at the mall i would give them a fierce stare(not that i am looking for trouble)just this anger inside me.I somehow have been behaving this way a few weeks ago which i dun know why,maybe cause by stress? i dun know...but just life isn't going well even though i strife hard for it.All the problems arising might just be the key to releasing the dark side of me which i definitely can't control...changes in me is too much for myself to adapt...

parkour!

today is quite a good day since i woke up at 12pm getting ready for parkour.But instead of meeting at 12,me and my crew end up meeting at 3.Everything was fine until one of my mates brought his girl along and i was like WTF we are suppose to be training.But i did not question him,the rest of the team wasn't comfortable as with a girl around we would be doing lesser things cause she would get tired of walking as we scout for good parkour spots and she gets bored easily all sorts of things.
But the worst of all leo my team mate camera man! didn't charge his camera! ended up we only did condition instead of the videos that we planned for quite a time.Still! we manage to learn our lesson no bringing of girlfriends along and camera fully charge! till next time

tiring and frustrated day

today life isn't good..lesson which was suppose to end at 6 ended at 4 plus which got my mood up a little..the thing which is frustrating most is the works at school..i dun know wat the programming lecturer is talking about,all i can see is his mouth moving about.adding to the stress the lecturer announced the test are coming which is counted in my points to poly.And today thanks to my "good" mood i start to pissed my friends and other around me and i am deeply sry about the attitude.today nothing is going well..all i can do is to strife on.

first post

My first post in this blog,i shall start with my new job at the airport.quite fun and hard? cause i am working in a cafe,mine is just a takeaway outlet which enquire speed and memory test with all the formula of the coffee.i am still a trainee but i am required to learn everything within 3 months if not hmm should i say goodbye.but overrall life there is good with the friendly staff and colleages.And my life sort of mess up with this new working life coming in,training time disrupted and alot of things just worried about my studies at ite which i am not coping very well.
hope my first post isn't that boring but life just goes on for me regardless of good and bad...till next time